Three Years Ago Today

the other night I dreamt about a sudden realization woke up screaming god I hope I'm not bleeding out my eyes or mouth when I die that everything bad that can happen to me would I have seen a sheepish wonder no one's gonna push my buttons I see me three years ago today but then it didn't seem quite as awful as it seemed can't believe I won't admit that I have seen a sheepish wonder no one's gonna have their say a little while later I was trying to remember I see me three years ago today no one's gonna push my buttons no one's gonna have their way feel about the same but I'm 10 years older watched my cat die for a month now I have seen a sheepish wonder I saw you earlier today