Desperately Trying

Never fears at home when he is with me
That is where he told me where he loved me
Leaving me desperately trying to understandDesperately trying to find a home for him to move to
Desperately trying to find a place for us to stay
Said he never really got through to me
That I never opened up emotionally
Guess I kind of lost my trust on the waySince he is gone I'm sinking
Sinking deeper into who I really am
Now I'm brave enough to show what's inside
But it's too lateSad he'd never loved me
That he always stopped for his feelings to grow
And I went and hope and hope for things to change
Since he is gone I keep on finding out
All these little things about him
Realized in fact that he was always there without (?)