Dead Awake

Today things change i've been so fuckin' scared Since i picked up the phone
Trying to escape from me
My heart i can't think straight
on the beach waves so free
And so calm as a lake
And like me i'm so dead awake

So i hold on to what i got 
For as long as I can
But now it's fallen
Apart in my hand
And it's so hard to understand
That I can't see you again

And i hold on to what got
For as long as i can
And now it's fallen apart in my hand
And it's so hard to understand

It seems like you're here with me
I just wanna see you again
Today things change
Why couldn't it be you
When I picked up the phone
The things i'd say
If i could have known
You won't be there
When i got home

Looking for answers why
It's so real it's not fake
And why am I so dead awake
Please just one more time
I wanna say good-bye
Ill wait for you
I'm not scared
I promise not to cry