Goodnight

I kick flows, rip shows, think it switched though
Shit no, it ain't any different when I get home
I shift po to get dough, lust P's if you ain't ever been broke
For you to judge me's an insult, it's my life an I'm living itAgreed we all have choices but mine limited mostly by my decisions
If I knew then what I knew now I'd a lived live different
I'd be a different me but I didn't so this is me
Me in my position, what would you have doneWould you of done what I did? Am I what you would become?
My guess, my guess is you would of succumb like I did
The decision was mine but I was too young
And I picked the wrong path, I went the wrong wayLeft school then got the grade, banged it out, got my pape's
Stacked my P's, copped a cake, I'm holding weight now
Made a brick of a ounce and ain't been in the jailhouse
I intend on staying free, free for me don't mean free from stressLay in bed but I ain't asleep
From I need rest I just blaze the tree's
Drift off hearing my nan say to meGoodnight, God bless
I'll see you in the morning
Goodnight, God bless
I'll see you in the morningI'm a dreamer but can only dream as
Long as I'm asleep I've been having trouble sleeping
See nanny, Edie ain't here to say goodbye no more
I had to say goodbye to her, inside is where resides the hurtNow all I feel is pain, after that nothingness
After that nothing since after that there's nothing left
Some of her last words were I can't fight forever
Like she wanted to give up and of life she was fed upShe had to go but I wanted her to stay
'Cause ever since she left, things haven't been the same
I need a new shelter from the rain
My face looking weathered, a facety looking bredder, I'm fed upI know not what to do
See, I'd love to say that I don't give a fuck but I do
The gift and curse that I'm blessed with
The pressures on road ain't nothing to the emotions that I wrestle withStress got me in a figure four, raw is what I'm thinking
I wonder what I'm living for, is it only to hurt first my great nan?
Now I gotta put my dad in the dirt
Back in the earth, I wished we could have patched it up firstI was so angry though, I just couldn't handle the hurt
Now you're in the back of a hurse
It hurts more than it ever did
Sometimes I wish that I had never livedFeels as if it would have been better if I never did, live
I don't know how I'm ever gonna get through this shit
I swear down blood, I'm runnin' on empty
My life ain't nothing to be envied, so goodnight