When I Was Drinking

When I was drinking 
When I was with you 
Living it up when the rent was due 
With nothing and no one to live up to 

You and me dying on the vine 
Holding hands and drinking wine 
Now I'm not the same girl I left behind with you 

Twelve bars behind us 
And twelve bars to go 
Bottles of beer lined up in a row 
One for each hour you didn't show 

You and me dying everyday 
Getting high just to pass away 
But that's not the reason I couldn't stay with you 

Now I am sober 
Now I'm alone 
Three years have gone by since you have gone 
Letting you go 
Letting me go on 

But I'll raise a glass now to you and me 
To to lift me higher so I can see 
Which of these blessings are killing me